Refocusing

Several years ago while in college, I was challenged by a speaker to be open to God and say, “Here I am. Send me.” From that time on, He has led me to become a missionary overseas. I moved to Texas over 6 years ago to attend seminary and to be trained as missionary not knowing when or how God would use me. He showed me that I am wired to work with children, and it is something I truly love to do. After graduating, I began working in the children’s ministry department at Irving Bible Church. I love my job and it was perfect for me! I love planning of events, serving alongside amazing leaders, and more importantly, seeing kids grow in Jesus, connect in community, and join God’s mission. While I enjoyed what I do and grew as a person and as a Christ-follower, I began to lose focus on what God has ultimately called me to do. A couple of weeks ago, God presented me with an opportunity that would enable me to refocus on being a missionary and help me get to the field faster. After much prayer, wisdom from others, and wrestling with God, I have decided to resign from my position at IBC. God showed me recently that I have gotten too comfortable here and that this isn’t the life He has called me to lead. A favorite song of mine is Chris Tomlin’s “I Will Follow,” and I have prayed that the lyrics to that song would be true in my life. While I do not want to leave my position, I must be obedient to what He has called me to do, and there is peace from knowing that I am walking in obedience to His will. I am excited to see where God is leading, but at the same time, I mourn the change in relationships that will occur: not worshipping our great God with the children’s Bible study on Tuesday nights, not pulling pranks with my coworkers, not sharing life as often with the amazing people on staff at IBC, witnessing amazing leaders invest in the spiritual lives of children, and I could mention many, many more.

 So what’s the plan? I have accepted a full-time, non-live in nanny position with I family in Dallas I have known for 4 years and dearly love. This position will enable me to pay off my school loans faster and be a little "uncomfortable" as I look toward what God has for me. IBC will continue to be my church home, and I will continue to worship and serve there. During the time of transition, I will continue with some of my responsibilities but as a volunteer. As you remember, please pray for me during this time of transition as I am stretched with a new job, seeking to maintain relationships that are undergoing major change, and refocusing on where God is leading. Please also pray for my team in children's ministry and my new employers as we are all transitioning in some way.

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Brother John said…
I was delighted and not surprised to read your blog post. Beth you are an amazing woman that I greatly respect and highly admire. My heart sings to consider the chapters of your life that will unfold due to this courageous act of obedience to the Lord Jesus Christ.
6:19 PM
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